You should read everything you can find written by Dr. "Ring of fire ADD" is to the best of my knowledge a Dr. That is good news because it indirectly means there is a fix. If your handle is a reference to what is going on inside your head, you're not that unique. Where have I gone ? I can't seem to sustain myself in the presence of others. I don't feel good about anything I do enough to keep me at it. Even today I don't take as much interest in doing my things alone than what everyone else is doing. not sure if that's a personality thing or what but even now my actions I recall less than anothers. I hadn't developed or there just wasn't a person there to defend. I was so into everyone else's feelings (or what I assumed them to be ) cause I couldn't seem to ignore them. I think it was a way of protecting myself from my huge feelings. I kind of separated myself from the negative things I felt when I was young and sometimes I experience it like a third person. Feels like a little kid going through tantrums and crying spells sometimes. It's not too bad I still go through these multiple mood shifts in a very short period if there's a trigger. Anyone have any input or feel somewhat the same way ? I'm on tegretol, cymbalta, trazadone, and mirtazapine. The kind of help I need is not available in Canada.DBT and other treatment. I 'll at least feel half decent and more stable. I'm hoping I'll find the answer soon and though I may not be able to catch up. any kind of accomplishment makes me feel better. My focus is on keeping active and trying new things. Right now I 'm not able to work and probably going on disability. I suspect others in my family may have a form of ADD as well but I seem to be the only one willing to admit to having issues. I find I notice little things others don't and laugh my *** off. My Doc suggested ADD might be an issue as well as bipolar, and anxiety disorder. I'm in fight or flight all the time and even when I was on another antipsychotic and felt " good " I was still sad inside. It's alot of retraining my brain and I just want to be able to feel good without something ruining it. It's horrible and I'm working on not assuming, seeing the grey area, thinking before I act and positive thinking. My moods shift in seconds either from a thought, a feeling or something around me. I find I do get stuck in ruts, and when I get feeling good I get cocky and impulsive. I'm good at writing but it's always focused on me or my health or on the fantasy world I thought life was. **** me off or scare the hell out of me and I accomplish things. I find my anger and anxiety are the only things I can feel and the only thing that drives me into action. I know I'm smart but the only thing I have to talk about is what I feel or anything to do with my health. I'm a big kid and accepting myself at this level is difficult. I'm starting step by step but I'm still at the step where I need to try things. I can't even get past cleaning my own room. It's like I tag along with everyone else and their lives but when it comes to mine. Seems like I need some extreme feeling to get me to do anything on my own otherwise I would just sit there. I too had a different impression of the world around me (black and white perspective) and am working on every aspect in order to be able to at least do simple daily tasks. Conversation is difficult and my energy level is always low. I've not accomplished very much and I'm 30 now. Also I can't seem to keep interest in any one thing for more than a few minutes. My feelings and thoughts seem affected by so many things. even being in the presence of someone sometimes. I'm on a number of meds and can only block out so much. I "feel" and am aware of everything around me all the time. I've been suffering my whole life from extreme anxiety, anger ,depression.
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